As The Rush Comes........

yes dear...the life of an almost married couple

2005-08-01T20:16:15Z

This week has been pretty basic. I worked alllllllll week last week which sucked but I owe school way too much money to not work all week. In fact I really don't even remember last week because there was nothing to it except for work which means although I live with Jay I never see him since I work at night and he works during the day.

However I had off saturday and sunday which was awesome. Saturday Jay and I took a ride down to Jackson and went to Hurricaine Harbor which was really fun. I'm a whimp and wouldn't go on anything too scary much to his chagrin but we still had a really good time going on all the rides together. We stayed till around 5 headed home, and I cooked dinner for us. Now I cook dinner every single night for us, yet when I say cook what I really mean is microwave. I buy microwavable chicken, wings, homestyle entire chickens, microwable broccoli...the hardest thing I'd say I make is heating up corn on the stove. However, I feel kind of like a good home maker because I do cover all the food groups (I always make a salad, chicken, and some sort of veggies). Anyway, after dinner I wanted to go jogging and Jay didn't want me go alone stating the central park jogger incident so to his dismay he came along (while breathlessly complaining "I hate you I hate you I hate you for this"). After jogging I took the best shower of my life, straightened my hair while he read to me, and we bought a bottle of Van Gogh Chocolate Vodka. If you like chocoalte I would highly suggest buying this. It is a wonderful liquor that leaves a chocolate after taste. It's 30 dollars for a 750 but it's soooo worth it, yet I wouldn't suggest buying it to get drunk, its more of an after work drink. After having a few drinks we called it a night.

Sunday we woke up and played with the dog, and headed over to Jay's parents house. They were having a barbeque for Jeremy's grandparents who came up from Florida for a few weeks. Jeremy is especially close to his grandparents because he spent his first ten years living with them so it was really nice to have them here for so long. The barbeque was his uncles and aunts and the whole family and it was just really nice. We then found out Jeremy's grandparents bought us a couch and a table with chairs which is amazing but I feel so awkward taking...but we have furniture!!! Yay!!! It comes August 13th and we're gonna have a small party not long after since we finally will have a completely furnished apartment. After coming home and eating so much food I went jogging again, and he came along again begrudgingly and we watched the 4400 and fell asleep. It was a great weekend.

I love tiny

2005-07-21T20:11:32Z

10 reasons why dawn can never have a party again 10. no one wears home the right shoes, if they wear shoes at all 9. contrary to popular belief girls screaming karayoke style isn't enjoyable 8. not suprisingly the guy to girl ratio at the party was about 7500 to 1 (guys 7500) 7. the last time i saw that many people that thought they were black i was at a beastie boy concert 6. the shiny bags brought by all the girls have caused temporary blindness 5. dawn "you guys can't smoke at my house...okay well you can smoke weed on the porch" 4. dawn was drunk before anyone showed up (but thats also the reason i love dawn) 3. unsubstantiated consensual rape....quoi? 2. people sparatically jumping out of second story windows (my boyfriend of course) 1. JODI'S CAR GETTING STOLEN BY A PERSON WHO ATTENDED THE PARTY

happy america day

2005-07-05T17:00:46Z

What a crazy week. I went to a party with Dawn, Jodie and Emily sometime last week and as usual....mayhem. The night all in all was fun except for the weather which sucked making it very difficult to smoke cigarettes, but hey, we're all trying to quit anyway right?

I spent the weekend in Montreal...again. I love Montreal but I think this time i've had enough of the quebecois and won't be returning again. Besides, I have two really big vacations coming up (the vegas- grand canyon trip in october, and the disney, all of florida trip in april) so I can't be blowing any money on small vacations for awhile.

We arrived in Montreal friday night very late (after hitting hours of traffic), so we just headed to the casino had a few drinks, went back to our hotel (the delta which is not that expensive and the nicest hotel in the city so I highly recommend it) and passed out. When we woke on saturday we got right in the car and went straight to Tim Horton's which for those of you don't know is like a dunkin donuts over there but SO MUCH BETTER you don't even know. I seriously am planning on ordering things over the internet. Best coffee, best doughnuts, best chocolate croissants, best sandwiches, best soups. The only difference is the portion size...a small coffe is about the size of a kids cup here, and the large is the size of our small, but they always said american's are pigs right?

After tim horton's we checked out jazz fest which is a big festival over there where all the top Jazz people come and play for the people and do parades, however we didn't here much jazz more of weird love parade type music which leaves little to be desired so really the love fest just delivered us massive amounts of traffic in the city. We went down to the old city (which is soooooooo beautiful) but I'm allergic to horses and they had horse drawn carriages everywhere so we couldn't stay long. We got lunch at the hard rock cafe and I got a blue hawain which rocked me unbelievably considering it was only one drink. After lunch we went back to the hotel for awhile and relaxed and then went down to the hotel bar and got three drinks for 11 dollars a piece so basically got ripped off to all hell. We hung out for awhile and got reservations at a french restaurant but were too full when the time came around so just got ready to go to the clubs and ended up at some club on crescent called club crescent for the night and spent too much money and drank too much.

The next day when we woke we went back to Tim Hortons (you don't know) and went back to the old city where we spent a lot more time taking pictures of the beautiful buildings and this was followed by us exploring outside montreal in the small cities which was stunning itself. We came back in the city around 5 and had dinner at an italian restaurant (which is always a mistake in a FRENCH country). We ordered calamari to start, I ordered chicken parm (which by the way came out grilled chicken with cheese) and jay got some italian dish we don't have in america and to be honest I don't think is italian and the waiter told us we were eating for three even though in america if someone got all our food combined as a serving they would be complaining about the portion. Whatever the case the flambointly gay waiter was pretty cool (oh by the way montreal is a huge gay city, they have the gay flag outside of every hotel with the canadian flag its actual quite nice to be in such a liberal city). This was followed by the casino where we lost a little so left, and went back to the hotel to relax and watch tv (but of course there's only one channel in english so tv wasn't really all that great). This was followed by club thursdays where we both got wasted which was really dumb because we spent hundreds of dollars that we shouldn't be spending because it was our rent money that's due today...go us. However, I was blessed with luck to get 700 dollars back from my security deposit in new brunswick so all is well.

We checked out two hours late because we were hung over, and spent 3 hours in traffic at customs, but after that the ride wasn't so bad seeing occasional fireworks. But the best part is we made it to giants stadium at exactly 11 so we got to see the entire fireworks show, JUST IN TIME, it was a wonderful way to end the weekend.

Ah. and here's some pictures of recent endeavors.....

me, mel, dawn and britt

my new apartment!

mela love

my baby

peace jerz

2005-06-14T17:27:23Z

Things have so not been a jersey summer recently. This last year has never ceased to amaze me in the differences I've passed through. In the last year I went from being out of control crazy kid always getting in fights with my parents, living at home just being a child. Now that a year has passed I've lived in two apartments, I've completely supported myself and really learned to grow...but everything comes with a price. I lost my youth in the middle of it.

I love my life, I love Jeremy, I love my apartment, I love my dog, I love my work.....but sometimes I miss backyards with cheap beer.

Anyway I'm moving to Florida...not quite yet though, but by the year's end

RIDICULOUS

2005-05-12T18:17:54Z

Okay, so last night was supposed to be girls night. Jeremy is pretty much considered one of the girls to Kelly and Dawn since we all live together so he was included in the festivities. It started out with Jay, Kel, Dawn, Ashley and I a 30 shot bottle of bacardi razz and a 20 shot bottle of captain morgans (we're rum drinkers in the guilden household...well jay's really a jd drinker but he's outnumbered). Then two randomn guys from across the street named Phil and Tom join in on the fest and Motley comes by for awhile but he left early because at 4am he was going on his...I JUST GRADUATED COLLEGE WOO HOO vacation.

Now, this is when the night is really supposed to settle down...Jeremy goes inside and the ladies decide we'll have another drink and then call it a night. But no, life isn't that easy. Some huge guy walks onto our porch and throws soup all over our yard which ashley just planted flowers and made a pond, so obviously she flips the fuck out screaming to get out of our house...he walks down the stairs and screams "fucking WHORES"...buddy you picked the wrong porch....

Dawn starts chasing him down the street cursing him off, and I chase Dawn which in turn leads to me cursing him off because he's cursing her off and then Ashley comes to chase us and Ashley gets right up in his face and he grabs her and starts shaking her and brings his arm back to punch her at which time I jump on the guy and ashley breaking it apart, at which time the guy opens a can of soup and pours it all over ashley's head. Now at the same time Jeremy is sleeping in the house upstairs door closed on the back side of the house and we're screaming so loudly and we're down the street but our screams are so loud that they wake him up and he looks and sees the guy going to punch us at which time THE POLICE SHOW UP when jeremy walks outside with a butcher knife...good job jay.

Five police cars come and arrest the guy and almost arrest Jeremy until I run over explaining the situation...by the way...how does this even happen????? Anyway he gets arrested and he's gone and the whole thing is just a mess. Jeremy goes home and we end up going to a party across the street but it's lame so we meet up with the girls next door Lauren and Michelle and somehow walk into some randomn person's party where a guy kelly used to hook up with is there so total awkwardness randomnly along with a bunch of kids from manalapan. We stay there dancing and playing beer pong till about 3:30 go back to Lauren and Michelle's they smoke (I don't smoke anymore...okay I had one hit but that's all and then realize I don't smoke and stop) and we get home a little after 4. What a night.

I'd do anything- simple plan

2005-05-11T21:44:24Z

Things have been ultra chaotic recently. Jay and I move on saturday so friday night we're having A LOT of people over and we're gonna have a lot of liquor so everyone if anyone reading this come by....

Today I really didn't do anything. I didn't have my car because I got too drunk last night and had to leave it at a bar and have to wait for Jay to get home so we can go pick it up. I didn't wake up till noon, and then the outsiders was on so I got suckered in, and then Kelly and I went to West Point (the coffee house on easton like a minute and a half away from our house) and sat at one of the outside tables talking and laughing being nostalgic about summer 02.....anyone remember those nights?

girls night tonight...we're gonna have drinks on the front deck so ladies feel free to come.

keep your head up

2005-05-05T21:39:59Z

Interesting. Jeremy's ex roommate from college John and Dawn have struck an interest in eachother and are seeing eachother. John is an intelligent and witty college grad who now writes for the wall street journal. It seems in Jeremy's group of friends all of them are moderately succesful. I guess going to the college of new jersey really is that much better than a degree from another school.

Last night we decided to drink when it was too late to buy liquor and no one felt like spending all the money on the bars. Ashley from downstairs had a bottle of rumplemintz, a little bit of sapphire gin and a small bit of goldschlager (sp?) combined with our beer and bacardi version of mike's hard.

Lesson of the night...rumplemintz and half and half may taste like a peppermint milkshake for a second, but later on on your stomach, not a good idea.

I can't believe the end of our lease is around the corner. It seriously feels like we moved into this apartment a week ago. Where exactly does the time go?

Jeremy and I are moving into our own BRAND NEW, beautiful apartment in a town house complex in somerset in nine days...NINE DAYS. Kelly is moving into a house on hamilton and Dawn is moving back home. However, in the note of convenience John moves into an apartment in North Brunswick the first which is without exageration five minutes from our new apartment.

Having this apartment was an adventure that I will never forget....

Saturday is officially Jay and I's one year anniversary. It strikes me as odd how quickly one year can go by. Although that first night, the first date, the night he asked me to be his girlfriend, the night he told me he loved me are all so fresh in my memory to the point where they feel so close, I feel as though I've known him forever...I can't imagine a world without Jeremy. Before Jeremy I was a completely different person surrounded by a completely different world....everything about me and everything about my life has changed. The best way to describe the difference is child and adult. I've grown so much...

So it's cinco de mayo! However, I'm not drinking. I've been drinking too much recently and I need to give it a rest.

Rutgers Fest

2005-04-28T20:49:46Z

Every year around this time Rutgers decides to go crazy. The festivities start off tonight around 11pm pre-gaming in the apartment. Then Dawn, Ashley, Kelly and I are venturing off to the many parties to occur.

Tomorrow morning at 10am pregaming begins and Rutgers Fest officially kicks off around 1 feating performers such as Nas. The festival runs till about 7 and then its sin city in New Brunswick. As a lady, I warn all you other girls, avoid the streets Friday night. The men are horrific and will stop at nothing to degrade the girls. Anyway we're DRIVING to Ashley, Oliver and company's party on Hamilton (which is literally a street and a half away) and staying there for the duration of the night.

If anyone wants to come hit up jay's cell because mine's still missing in action. Hope to see you all!

hey little sister what have you done

2005-04-22T20:01:42Z

I'm hung over. I drank too much again. Whatever.

Tonight Christopher, or Motley, Kelly's boyfriend is having a party with approximately 60 people showing up. Of the 60, 11 are pregaming at our house. Now normally this wouldn't be a problem, but living in an apartment that's too small for four ppl to move around in, 11 more should be interesting.

Kim and her boyfriend are coming at seven to make jello shots. It's 4 now and I'm still in pajamas. I'm obviously a morning person.

I have nothing to wear- bah. It's interesting to me how much girls look into outfits. Kelly and I have been discussing what we were going to wear to this for two weeks. TWO WEEKS. That's pathetic. However, I'm sure we'll be the hottest girls there, so in the end it pays off.

Does society really make girls that conscientous that two weeks of planning goes into an outfit. Well I guess I'm a sucker, kudos to me.

I miss Jess-a-love and Melanie....ladies come to the apartment!!!!

Oh, and I lost my cell phone again, and Jay worries about me being without a cell phone so he gave me his phone in case I come into an emergency situation which makes me feel shitty because now he doesn't have a phone. He's protective which is endearing. Living with him I imagined to be really hard, but now that I have for this long I could never not live with him. I can't imagine a night not in bed with together...we haven't spent one night apart since he moved in and honestly I don't see why we ever would.

crazzecutie @ 2005-04-11T19:59:00

2005-04-12T00:01:49Z

Sometimes I miss living in Manalapan...

I miss all the kids I used to be friends with...the nights filled with innocence and childhood.

Just chilling with a bunch of people I grew up with drinking and talking in someone's back yard....

I thought moving to New Brunswick would bring the craziest nights of my life, but what I realized was moving to New Brunswick did nothing more but make me grow up. Instead of partying the simple life with a bottle of liquor in a kids back yard now its trips to the Bahamas, puppies, and full time work.

Now don't get me wrong, I love the life I live, but not having a single friend who still lives in Manalapan makes me nostalgic for the good old days..once....once and every while

To all my old friends, don't think I've forgotten you, no matter how long it's been and what road we parted on, you're all still in my fondest memories

six under ground

2005-03-05T02:56:12Z

Things have been good recently,

The apartment is well. Jay, Kelly, Dawn and I are drinking frangelico/amaretto/7 up/orange juice drinks tonight. The outcome- tastes like a chocolate orange...awesome.

I was sick yesterday/today. I had to stop all of everything today because I had a fever last night and threw up. I feel better today though, so horay.

I went shopping yesterday and spent way too much money. I'm so irresponsible..on the plus side, I got three skirts, two pairs of sweat pants, a pair of jeans, four tops, and three jackets to go with my sweat pants...yeah, I'm an ass, and when money's tight, I go shopping...go katie.

Tiny's driving me crazy. She decided to go to the bathroom on my bed today....so I decided to leave her in the cage, for the rest of the week...okay that's a little much but definately for the rest of the night. Damn dog.

I'm going to the bahamas with Jay for my birthday the first week in April and my brother has been nice enough to say he would watch the dog at his apartment. As much as I love the little terror, I'm excited to have time away from her

crazzecutie @ 2005-02-24T16:22:00

2005-02-24T21:38:17Z

I figured I would give everyone a glimpse of apartment life...so here ya go

me and jay being silly

jim passed out on our couch after a night of drinking

the lovely livingston girlfriends

me drunk to all hell

kel and steve before he left for korea

me kelly and dawn looking like we're hooking up...we're not

puppy

im drunk and bitchy

too long

2005-02-18T17:07:04Z

Well, things have certainly been on the interesting side lately.

Tiny, or shall we say Tiny the terrible is teething and although it's adorable that she took off our toilet seat cover and now considers it her new toy, it gets rather bothersome when she goes for the leather stilettos, so there's been a lot of "Tiny NO!!!" recently.

I don't know how to update on months on end so I'll just update on the last couple days...

Valentine's day was absolutely wonderful. Jeremy decorated my entire room with hearts and cupids and it was stunning. He gave me a dozen long stem roses and a box of godiva and of course my lovely valentine puppy. He also got me bubble bath mix so we could take a bubble bath and he rented me the movie "The Notebook" which I've been dying to see since it was in the theatres and he's been procrasinating seeing since it's been in the theatre. The night all in all was one of the best nights of my life, and by far the most romantic. Moo, you're the best.

I don't even remember tuesday...oh wait, yes I do. I did nothing except for go tanning with Kelly....all day. It was awesome. Then me and Jay went to friday's in manalapan at night because we couldn't figure out where there was one in the brunswicks. It was really good we did the whole 3 course $12.99 thing and I very much enjoyed the food so I would recommend going to anyone and everyone.

Wednesday was interesting because me and Jay got in a fight, he called me a bitch, and I ran him over with the car....literally. Now I know this might sound bad ordinarily, a girlfriend running her boyfriend over, but he deserved it. No I'm just kidding, not about running him over, I really did do that, but he didnt deserve it. However, the whole thing wasn't intentional. He got in the back of the car to try to stop me from sleeping at my parents house for the night (mid fight trying to run kind of thing) and I thought he would just jump on top of the trunk like he normally does, but apparently I pressed the gas a little too hard and he was taken under the car.....sorry honey...eee.

Wednesday was also nice though because I went to Jessalyn's and I haven't seen her in forever, and it was so nice to hear how everyone's doing and hang out.

After Jay and I's fight (by the way I know this day is totally out of order) we decided to eat at the East Grand Chinese Buffet...wow that was a mistake.

Thursday I spent the day with Dawn. I died her hair hence causing us all to inhale toxic fumes in the apartment for 24 hours but it looks good. We also decided we don't go out enough so thursday would be the night. Wow, big mistake. We got ANNHILATED stumbled back at 3am through the streets of new brunswick alone, but hey, no fear, I brought a screwdriver, woke up the puppy, and according to Jay BOMBARDED through the house ranting and raving about locking the doors so we wouldn't get raped (why is this what me and my friends visualize when we're drunk???) and it was really awesome waking up at 7am for class this morning. Yay katie, for being a lush. Kudos to me.

puppy love

2005-02-11T05:22:28Z

Valentine's day...and I got a dachshund puppy, named Valentine, who we call Tiny. She's from Jay as a Valentine's day gift. I'm in love.

merry christmas

2004-12-28T14:32:59Z

I had the most wonderful Christmas of my life. I got stuck working Christmas Eve because I'm going away for new years and new years day, which sucked, but after that everything was wonderful. My boss told me we were closing at 8 Christmas Eve to sucker me in, which of course was a lie and I didn't get out till 9:30. This was followed by me doing a quick change in the bathroom, and zooming to Red Bank to meet Jay and his family at his uncle's house. They had already eaten so I heated up some food (sooooooooooo good) and his uncle and aunt were sweet enough to get me this thing from bath and body works even though I only see them on holidays (and I was ooooooooo so relieved I had gotten them a box of chocolates). This was followed by us going back to my house and having the traditional sea food (even though everyone was already asleep). Jay and I exchanged gifts. I got him the new small playstation with san andreas (?) and madden 05, with the star wars trilogy, the lord of the rings trilogy, the new steven king book, a classical music cd, and a bulldog book. I was fortunate enough to have a month where I didn't have to spend any money and so I really went all out for Christmas. Jay got me more than I would ever ever ever ask for. He got me lite bright (the stupid kids game my parents never got me when I was a little girl- such a cute idea), dumbo on DVD, a new beautiful jacket, a 50 dollar gift card to Sephora, an argyle sweater (because he's awesome), (not to forget my watch, dumbo, and my christmas tree as early gifts) and a 3k diamond bracelet that literally took my breath away. It's so beautiful, and is worth so much money that I'm afraid to wear it. I can't believe he spent so much. I would of been happy with lite bright! I'm not even sure I'm going to bring it to our house in New Brunswick because I'm afraid it will get stolen. To Jay- my love, you are the most selfless person I have ever met.

We woke up Christmas morning and I started experimenting making drinks for my family to get drunk on. I made alcoholic egg nog from scratch (thanks to Jeremy's parents who bought me a beautiful bartender's guide/recipe book and a beautiful sweater/jacket). Mission success! We opened gifts soon after. I had gotten my brother and Monika a 50 dollar gift card to Pier 1 and the game uno (because they wanted it?), my father the wizard of us on dvd (his favorite movie) and I made him a scrap book of memories from our old house (he's sentimental), and I got my mom and $80 gift card to get her hair colored and trimmed with my hairdresser. Between my parents and Lenny and Monika I made out with the cutest boots I've been eyeing down for about 3 months now, a book on impressionist art because Monika is the most intuitive person I've ever met, money for my highlights, a blanket, and chocolate "from poland". I am so fortunate to have such generous people surround me. This Christmas I can literally say I could have never asked for, or even wanted more.

Christmas we just hung around and got fat, and me Jay my brother and Monika played pictionary as well as other various games throughout the night.

The day after Christmas we went back to Jay's because his mother was FLIPPING OUT about the catastrophic state his room was in. One hour and I had it clean with virtually no help from Jay (what is it with men and cleaning?). We then headed over to the cathedral in Newark which is probably the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. After the church we met Dawn and Anthony at Applebees and I got drunk off of half an LIT I shared with Jay and Dawn got me the cutest bag because she's a sweetheart.

We went back to my house and played playstation which I got bored of after about 5 seconds but kept playing for my baby. Then we attempted to watch star wars but it was already 3am and we both fell asleep on the couch and maybe half an hour later he took me upstairs and we passed out in beds (much more sufficient then the couch even if my parents refuse for us to sleep in the same room).

We woke up to the beautiful snow Monday morning and headed straight over to the mall-highlights! And I highlighted my hair once again so I'm blondish/caramel again and feel pretty. Unfortunately the second it was done I had to throw it right up and go to work, but first I got to go to sephora to use my gift card (thanks Jay!). I then went to work which sucked at life, but it's all worth it in the end. I already have half the security deposit that's due the 15th so kudos to working I suppose. Unfortuantely I'm working monday night tuesday night wed night thurs night but then after work thurs WE'RE GOING TO MONTREAL!!!! I then come home monday and work Monday night, tuesday night, wed night, thurs night, fri night and sat night to pay off the apartment. Dear god that's gonna suck. But Montreal!!!!!!!

exuberant

2004-12-20T19:10:22Z

I am currently considering myself one of the luckiest people to have ever graced this earth. It almost all seems too good to be true, because everything is PERFECT right now. I'm not used to everything working out, I'm not used to having things turn out the way I want them...it's just not the way it is. It's almost like when someone you know dies....it's like surreal, you can't comprehend it. That's how I am about everything going on in my life right now.

Kelly, Dawn and I are on January 15th moving into a house in new brunswick. The deposits already down, it's ours. I'm like....going out of my head here of excitement and disbelief that this is happening. The house is pretty big but it's two floors and we'd have the second floor (we don't know who's living on the first floor but the apartments are completely sepearated with locks and everything). We each have our own bedroom, we have a kitchen, and a living room. Our apartment itself isn't that big but we all have our own room, we have a kitchen with a stove and microwave and dishwasher (I think?), a living room, we're in the prime spot of new brunswick (literally party zone of new brunswick) we have a front deck, a back yard, and a driveway to fit all three of our cars. We have new carpeting and the walls have just been painted. All of our parents have given us their blessing, we sent in the deposit and I talked to the realtor today and he said its ours now that he has the deposit. We sign the lease by the end of the week. I can't even believe this is happening. We're each paying for it on our own, and with everything worked out, rent, utilities, car insurance, cigarettes, gasoline, cable, and 200 dollars on drinking alone, it only works out to me working 4-5 days a week (which I already do). This is so crazy, I can't believe this is actually happening. I don't think I've ever been so happy in my entire life, seriously my entire fucking life. Like......what?!!?!? I can't I'm just dying of happiness right now.

Me and Jay are going to Montreal for New Years Eve....I pretty much have my consent. It's almost Christmas.....

This month is gonna fly by. Jay's birthday is this week, then it's christmas eve (which I have to work :( ....sucks), then Christmas, then a week goes by and I'm in Montreal, then I come back work really hard for two weeks and..bam I'm living in my own house. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

everything happens for a reason-

2004-12-19T03:42:13Z

I got in a fight with my dad the other day. The fight was pretty wicked and a lot of intense feelings were displayed. It was a very uncomfortable situation, but it led to good. This fight led me to once again desire moving out of the house. Kelly recently transferred to Rutgers for the spring semester, Dawn has currently been going crazy, and I've wanted an apartment away from here for a number of reasons.

1. I've never lived away from home before.
2. I never wanted to live in a dorm, sorority, or with people I didn't know
3. Before I move in with Jay I've wanted a chance to live with my friends for awhile

Recently, this has all become possible. With Kelly going to rutgers, and with me and Dawn being work-a-holics we decided it was time for the three of us to live together....and we've found something. A three bedroom house which we can afford, we just have to hustle like crazy this month.

I don't remember ever being so excited in my life. I get to live away from my parents (FINALLY) and away from all the stress and negative feelings in this household. I get to live with my two best friends. I get to be alone with Jeremy and be able to have him practically move in with me.

Seriously, words don't describe. We're going to see the guy tomorrow, and if all goes well, the house is ours the 15th of january. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Christmas Eve in Sarajevo

2004-12-13T17:44:22Z

I am the luckiest girl in the entire world. Moving has been a lot more difficult for me than I thought it would be. Jeremy has been there through it all pulling me through all of it and for this I'm more grateful than anything in this world. Earlier this week I called him crying because my mother refuses to get a Christmas tree this year or even decorate because she's afraid it will mess up the house. Christmas has always been a huge holiday to me so this was nothing short of heartbreaking. I called Jeremy crying and sure enough, yesterday he took me to brock farms where he bought me a fake little fiber glass tree that lights up in all beautiful different colors. He bought red and green garland and strung it all over the room and he bought real tree branches from christmas trees so my room will smell like Christmas. I am so happy to be with such a wonderful person.

Last week I was upset because in the middle of a play fight he broke my watch, which let's face it was years old, all scratched up and the battery hasn't been working for the entire course of our relationship, I was just too attached to the old thing to take it off. So he bought me a beautiful new one. Anytime a guy has ever bought me jewelry before I opened it up, kind of looked at it with an "ugh" going through my whole body, pretended to of course love it, and eventually the jewlery grew on me. This time was different. He bought me the exact watch I would of picked out if I had been at the store myself. It literally took my breath away how intuitive he is to me.

I somehow managed to loose my stuffed elephant in the move. Daisy was the softest cutest elephant that Jeremy had bought me at the Bronx Zoo early last spring. Although it's just a stuffed animal when things went crazy with my family and I wasn't living at home for awhile that stuffed animal kept me company while I slept and made me feel safe and at home. It has such sentimental value to it. I was very upset about having lost it so Jeremy bought me the christmas edition of dumbo at the disney store and he's soooooo cute, but I call her a she because she's white and pink.

I never thought I'd have someone who would care so deeply about me, who would do everything just to ensure my happiness. Jeremy is the light at the end of the tunnel, the air that makes me breathe, the fuel that lights my fire. He is every smile, and every joy that has been brought to my life and I will spend every ounce in me to ensure his happiness...always.

I almost died yesterday

2004-12-07T17:25:06Z

I write this entry because I am utterly so grateful and appreciative to be alive at this moment. Yesterday I was a literal split second away from a fatal head on collision. I was on 537 all the way down almost by the outlets going back to Manalapan to go to work when a truck cut across the highway to make a left. He did it too close in front of me causing me to slam on the breaks but my breaks didn't work..instead my car hydroplanned. Frantically realizing I was approximately 5 seconds away from crashing straight into the truck (an 18 wheeler) I started pumping on the breaks and turning the car into the direction that the car was being pulled before I got slammed right into the left lane- the incoming traffic lane. 537 is a 50mph in both directions road similar to 520...when my car went in the left lane it was impossible for me to regain control of and there was another huge truck right there...all you heard was the beeping from his truck and the absolute horrid screetching from my car and his truck. I am not exagerating when I say I now believe in god because at the LITERAL last second before my car would of went straight into the truck causing absolute fatality on instant my car pulled out of the lane and this time shooted to the other side of the highway almost into the woods when I then regained control of the car. The experience nearly gave me a heartattack. I never knew what hyperventalating was until yesterday. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't stop shaking and I couldn't stop crying for about half an hour.

I came a split second away from the end of my existence. It was just like every dream I ever had about dying in a car accident- the huge truck, loosing control of the car and having nothing but my impending doom to wait for. Something happens when you come that close to death...you realize how fragile life really is and how easy it is to be gone from this world.

All day I kept thinking about what if I had died...my parents new house would be ruined...would they ever recover from it? How would my brother have dealt or Jeremy or my friends? It's really a horrid thought.

I called my father after and he picked my car up from work to get new tires (tires I've been meaning to fix since the summer started but just bought one new one because of expenses). He bought me ones that are specifically good in the rain and snow since my car doesn't handle well in either (thanks daddy).

chestnuts roasting on an open fire

2004-11-22T19:13:02Z

I had an absolutely perfect weekend. Thursday night I went out and partied with the girls which is always fun.

Friday I worked till around 10:30 and then came home, had a glass of cabarnet, and waited for Jay. When he arrived we decided since it was already so late and our night was just beginning we were going to stay up and watch the sunrise. The night was wonderful and I cannot by any stretch of the imagination complain. Oh god I love my boyfriend.

Saturday I woke up around 12:30 and let Jay sleep so I hung out with my mom while she baked chocolate meringue pie and I did really nothing more but watch but, hey, we all know how terribly I bake. Jay and I spent the day lounging around, watching the new Harry Potter movie, and by the time I got in the shower it was 7:30. However, doing absolutely nothing until that point was nothing short of glorious. After the shower I got all dressed up because we decided to go out to dinner. We got an italian dinner and it was so nice to just conversate over a good meal. Saturday really was perfect. We spent the rest of the night drinking and enjoying each other's company. We had a really long talk about some things that have happened in the past and it lasted again until after sunrise. However, the conversation was very essential and it let out some hidden demons that have been effecting my life for quite some time.

We woke up at noon on sunday headed back to my house, I changed and we went ice skating. It was interesting watching the 6 and 7 year old kids literally skate circles around us while I held on to the wall for dear life. The experience was endearing, and so cute. It was the perfect activity to kick off the holidays. After we had our fill of making retards of ourselves on the ice we headed over to Brock Farms where jeremy bought me replacements for my ghost and pumpkin bells that hang over the rear view mirror in my car. We decided on rudolph and frosty. They're simply adorable and put an entire element of festivity to my car- thanks baby.

By this point our energy was drained so we came back to my house and went to sleep. Well, at least Jay did...I stayed up for another half hour listening to him snore and sweetly shoved him every minute or so in the sad attempt to fall asleep while he was awoken before the snoring started again. Luckily it worked and we both awoke two hours later to my parents bringing home leftover italian food-niceeeeee.

After dinner jay helped me pack all my books from the basement so I can just load them in my car over the next week. This was followed by renting "Mickey's Twice Upon A Christmas" which was so cute it made me cry.

I couldn't of asked for a better weekend. However, the weekend is over now and I have a 40 hour week of work starting in.....twenty minutes so the happiness better last for some time.

one way or another

2004-11-18T16:47:05Z

Work. I think it's unfortunate that college students need to work. It does nothing but distracts us from our school work and exhausts us so even if we try to make an attempt at our studies after work our brain and body is already fried and it's just pointless. If I won the lottery, I mean seriously won a lot of money, I'd make sure none of my friends would have to hold a job through college because I know, know, that without this whole work stipulation, we'd all do so much better in our classes and enjoy the whole learning process so much more.

Needless to say, my new job is draining me. I'm in training for being a waitress at Damon's grille, that new place that's opening up next week on route 9. Well because they're a new place they're all like crazy about everything being perfect so they have EVERYONE training monday-thursday 3-10 and then working friday and saturday night. That's six days in a row. Personally that and attempting to go to class, but who are we kidding since I've been working these hours I've gone to class ONCE this week. Which sucks because now I definately have to go to all of my classes next week. So blah. I'm really thankful that at least I have the intellect to miss more than half of my classes in a semester and still do well, really I am. However, regardless if I only attended one class I wrote an 8 page research paper on the Federal Marriage Amendment which is nothing short of disturbing.

The Bush administration is trying to pass the "Federal Marriage Amendment" which would not only prohibit gays from marrying in one state, it would prohibit them from marrying anywhere in the United States and even foreigners who came over from different countries that were engaged in a homosexual marriage would not be acknowledged as married or reap the benefits of such. This amendment would also prohibit civil unions which are unions that allow gay partners to have tax benefits, hospitalization visitor rights, etc. Not only is this amendment xenophobic it's totally against everything our constitution stands for. Ever here of seperation of church and state?...how about federalism? It's disgusting that people would be advocates of such utter homophobia and be willing to change the CONSTITUION because of such....it really fuels me.....yeah bush who recently lost thousands of explosives outside of Baghdad this month.....good job, now not only did we learn they didnt have weapons....we gave them OUR weapons....nice one

As for my social life I really haven't done anything except for work and Jeremy stopped by for a couple hours tuesday night but much of the night was him helping me, well actually more like writing my entire intro of my paper because my brain was shot. That's it. It's thursday and I don't even think I'm going out tonight because I'm so drained.

ooo heaven is a place on earth

2004-11-16T04:23:19Z

Things couldn't be more perfect. Yesterday was absolutely the most perfect day I've had in probably over a year. I slept late, spent the afternoon relaxing and then at 3:30 went to see Bridget Jones with Dawn which was better then the first one (which in my personal opinion was hard to beat). After the movie we got coffee and then Kelly called and said she was coming to Manalapan so we raced over to Baskin Robbins and bought her the cutest birthday cake. After cake we had girl talk about the men in our lives lounging on the couch making fun of the male population and discussing how the double standards across this nation and the world are horrific and utterly dispicable.

Then my baby came home.......seriously...thank god. First we fought which was seemingly unavoidable considering we were apart for nine days only talking through e-mails and I got too drunk and he didn't call so our fight prevailed, however soon after was over and we were laughing about it. I won't give details because even though I announce my life to the world...some things are sacred and private....however I will say this......last night was one of the most perfect moments I've ever had.

socrates philosophies and hypothesis

2004-11-14T00:46:14Z

Thursday and Friday night were spent at Rutgers drinking..here's a recap of the most interesting events

Dawn getting so drunk she blacked out....

I woke her up and took her downstairs and she went back to sleep on the stairs....

And when I woke her up again....

she punched me

Upon arriving at Perinelli/Omar/ and co's (?) house someone had a pet snake...

I decided to pet it...and the stupid boy let the snake coil around my arm. I freaked out screaming get it off me get it off me and his response "chill chill they can sense fear" as it coiled tighter around my arm.....horay for katie being stupid

Friday night.......

80's party at Delta Chi

I took 4 shots of cuervo and drank 3 cups of jungle juice and never even got buzzed......

Kelly came...

And then the cops raided the basement

Me and Kelly were in the basement and Dawn and Anthony were upstairs so it took us half an hour to find them

And then when we finally made it back to Manalapan...when we got on my driveway and were already parked Anthony (Dawn's boyfriend) threw up in my backseat

ask me no questions I'll tell you no lies

2004-11-12T18:39:32Z

FIRSTS:
First job: Baskin Robbins
First screen name: Ksweetgrl...since then it's only changed three times
First funeral: My grandmother
First piercing/tattoo: Ears when I was in 4th grade
First true love : dancing
First big trip: traveling back and forth to north carolina and florida when my grandmother had cancer

LASTS:
Last big car ride: hm...it's been a long time since I've been on a road trip Does the bar in nyc count?
Last library book checked out: Uh I just buy books
Last movie seen: White Fang...it was so good, it made me cry
Last beverage drank: Orange strawberry bananna juice...the ultimate hang over cure
Last food consumed:a nature valley granola bar...another hang over cure
Last phone call: kelly to explain to her the events of last night and talk about the party tonight
Last CD played: my "stone pony" mix which I made one night when we went to stone pony
Last soda drank: does a rum and coke count?
Last shirt worn: im still wearing my shirt from last night...when i got home i did one of those pass out with all my clothes on, on top of the covers things
Last website visited: this one?

I:
I am...katie
I want...jay to come home
I have... a dog named joe
I wish... I wasn't such an alcoholic
I hate... assholes
I fear... death and the unknown...heartbreak
I wonder... a lot of things
I love... jay
I always... procrastinate
I am not... the same person I used to be
I dance... constantly
I sing... in my car
I cry... when I'm stressed out
I am not always... nice
I write... to alleviate stress
I win... beer pong...sometimes
I lose...in every sport
I get confused by... people...and math
I need... to go get my police report and stop procrasinating

YES or NO:
Do you keep a diary: if this counts as a diary then YES. if not, then NO.
Do you like to cook: no..but I like to bake

DO YOU...?
Want to get married: yea
Get motion sickness: if i read when im in the car, yea
Think you're a health freak: try to be
Get along with your parents: i guess so, sure
Like thunderstorms: eh...more of a downpour kind of rain..I dont like the boom of thunder or the idea of lightning hitting me

FAVORITE:
Number: I don't think I have one...I guess 5, 8, 4 and 3
Color: the color of the sky at sunset...or the colors monet uses in water lilies
Day: friday? friday, no class and no work
Month: probably august
Season: summmer
Drink: rasberry iced tea snapple

PREFERENCES:
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate: chocolate milk...but that's also because I'm dehydrated from last night and thirsty and chocolate milk seems like a more thirst quenching drink
dark or white chocolate: dark
Vanilla or chocolate: CHOCOLATE

HAVE YOU RECENTLY:
Helped someone? no...geez that's not cool I guess I'm not so much of a giving person
Bought something? bacardi coco
Gone to the movies? yes, I saw birth with dawn
Gone out to eat? yes, I went to applebees with dawn
Said I love you? no...my boyfriends on a cruise with his family
Got a love letter? does an e-mail count?
Talked to an ex? yes, this week has been like a flash from the past
Written in a journal? i'm doing it right now...
Had a serious talk? blah
Fought with your parents? uh...like 4 months ago
Fought with a friend? no...unless u count dawn punching me last night because I woke her up

WOULD YOU EVER
Eat a bug? no, bugs highly nauseate me
Kill someone? maybe...if they killed someone I loved
Kiss someone of the same sex? i have
Have sex with someone of the same sex? nah
Parachute from a plane? definately not, im petrified of heights
Walk on hot coals? why?
Go out with someone for their looks? never that's stupid
Be a vegetarian? no cuz i love meat
Wear plaid with stripes? who cares?
Kiss a stranger? i have
Sing Karaoke? maybe if i was super drunk
Get drunk off your ass? yea and sing karaoke
Run a red light? yeah i got a $380 ticket for that once
Star in a porn video? not a real one
Be on Survivor? no, i like food and showers
Wear makeup in public? um
Cheat on a test? you kind of get kicked out if you do that in college
Date someone 10 years older than you? nah...old men skeeve me
Stay up all night? yea i do it occasionally
Buy a calender? probably

crazzecutie @ 2004-11-11T14:19:00

2004-11-11T19:38:16Z

Friends...friends are like the missing pieces to an incomplete puzzle. They're the milk and cookies after a stressful day. The warm bath to alleviate stress. I am so very grateful for all the friends that I have been blessed to have through the years.

The reason I write such, is Jeremy has been away which has given me a chance to re-bond with my girlfriends. Seeing them makes me realize how much I miss spending more time with them. So I dedicate this entry to my very special friends who I am utterly grateful and forever loyal to...I love you guys.

Yesterday after my abnormal psychology class I came home, and headed over to the food store. $80 worth of health food consisting of low carb cereal, low carb oatmeal, low carb energy bars, fruit, vegetables, 0 carb jello, low fat orange juice. When I got home and unpacked all these absurd items I got to thinking. Why is it that us ladies feel the need to do so much to be beautiful. We take irons to our hair, paint our faces, starve ourselves, go under radio-active lights to appear tan, wear skin tight clothing we can barely breathe in. Why do we do this???? Is it for men? Men who roll out of bed five minutes before they have to leave the house throw on some baggy clothing and put their greasy moppy hair under a baseball cap (and that's if they feel like being neat) and roll out the door. Then let's look at the female. Two hours before she leaves the house she jumps in the shower and shaves and probably uses some form of moisturizing lotion. She then proceedes to the blow dryer, followed by the straightening iron, followed by makeup, followed by picking out a cute outfit followed by a routine starvation day. The whole process is nothing but DEGRADING. Are we so concerned with our looks that we forget that we should be judged as a person for our PERSONALITY and not our looks. We complain all men care about is the next hottest girl...but look at us, we put so much into being the next hottest girl that how could they know any better...it's our own fault! As a nation we should all strike against this. I mean if ALL of us stopped dieting and stopped putting make up on and stopped going tanning and stopped straightening our hair...well the men really wouldn't be able to say very much and then we wouldn't have to feel self consciouse. Sadly, I know this will never happen and I will continue starving myself, ironing my hair, painting my face and when affordable radiation for a tan. It's tragic really.

After my catharsis, I went to see Birth with Dawn which was nothing more but a waste of 8 dollars and three quarters. The movie was starring Nicole Kidman who had lost a husband ten years earlier to death and was at present time getting married until she was convined a ten year old boy was the reincarnation of her dead husband. The premise of the movie was cool which was why I went to see it, but overall the film was boring and slow yet kept you in your seat to see the outcome. Dawn put it best...."I was dreading sitting there any longer but couldn't leave until I saw the ending". Short and sweet. This was followed by coffee from wawa, but no I cannot have my tasty chocolate macadenia filled with irish cream and splenda. Instead, regular coffee a splash of skim milk and one fake sweetener. Horay to being fat. We wanted to get drunk but things didn't work out so we put it off till today.

Today started off with me waking up 45 minutes late...not really caring and taking my time eating my low carb oatmeal and fat free coffee with carb free sweetener (yummmmm). From this breakfast I started the morning grumpy but decided to look pretty anyway and got to class 40 mins late (the class is only an hour and 15 minutes..). I have a terrible habit of never going to this class. It's philosophy. I've gone less than half of the classes because the professor doesn't take attendance and before the last test I went to about 3/10 classes so again thought I failed the test. However I got it back today and got a 90 which even further drives me to never attend class.

I came home and watched White Fang which made me cry and mess up my makeup which I didn't feel like touching up till I went out tonight but...c'est la vie. In an hour I'm getting coffee with Jess and tonight I can finally let loose and have a drink..thank god. This week has been excruciatingly long and I am very much looking foward to kicking back and partying it up this weekend.